Star date 12-6-22

Cancer log 194727274, or at least something close to that. It’s been a rough week. There’s been soreness and bleeding but I’m still healing. #Bars. Speaking of which, can’t wait to get back to those. Over all I’m still high spirited but the waiting is nerve racking.

Where for art tho test results? We need answers! We as in me and whoever is reading this. You’ve shared my journey and I’m ready for the conclusion. Yay or nay, I just need confirmation. This sitting in the house has not only broke me financially but it’s taking it’s toll on my mental stability.

Some may see this as a moment of weakness. But I see it as a moment of clarity. I’m at my ropes end and I need that bell to ring so we can all rejoice. Honestly, idc what people think about me. I’ve got too many people depending on me to pull through to worry about that. I just want answers. Hopefully they will come soon.

This journey has been life altering. Even if I beat the cancer I’ll never be the same. I’ll have restrictions that some of you who I’ve spoken with will understand. Forgive me for not saying their names but when you speak to me in confidence I keep that to myself. It’s like attorney client privilege.

I’ve grown impatient and I want answers. I’m like J. G. Wentworth. It’s my illness and I want answers now! I’ll get them soon but it’s the waiting that makes it hard to deal with. As always I thank you for letting me share. I appreciate your ears. #Bars.

Watch for my mix tape dropping soon!